Sunday, June 11, 2017

The ladybug and the Horse

Since I can remember, I was always a little girl who loved animals. All of them! From horses to dogs, insects to birds. I remember this lovely lady we had as a neighbour. Her home was old and beautiful! I would walk from my yard through her marvellous gardens. So many flowers, it was magical. I would go visit her and would always end up in her wardrobe where I knew, in a box was her cat and kittens. She seemed to always have kittens around. I would get lost in time and often would be late for dinner, but my mom knew where to call to find me. I would do the same at my grandmother's place. I would kiss my grandma quickly and head in the basement, near the wood stove where again a box with kittens was waiting for my love and enchantment.

As a child I had a bed frame with a book shelf in the headboard. I had a whole collection of books about animals of all kinds; birds, whales, wolves etc. As I got older I spent hours watching documentaries. I only spoke french back then and loved Jacques Cousteau! His amazing documentaries were called "L’Odyssée Sous-Marine de l’Équipe Cousteau". My mom would urge me to go outside but I was perfectly happy learning and being amazed by the creatures of the world!

When my spiritual journey started to unfold and come to the forefront of my life, especially after my Reiki course, I realized my love for everything in nature grew! I even had a phase where I had a hard time gardening, cutting grass etc... I kept thinking; who decided this plant was a weed and needed to go and this one was a flower therefore could live? I started saving all insects I could from my home. In our home we would get ladybugs quite often and I had learned that in the winter they could survive on their body weight but what was killing them was dehydration. So yes, I would put a bit of water on my finger and leave it to them, they would run towards it and drink. Even my husband knew to leave them alone and not get rid of them. Every living being deserves to me from a ladybug to horse there is no difference. Who gets to decide which one is more important!

The more I aligned with my purpose the more sensitive I became.  Eventually I came to the realization that I am an Empath. I had always associated being an empath to feeling and sometimes absorbing a persons' energy but I realized that I could also do it with animals.

I could feel what animals were feeling; both physically and emotionally. I remember my first experience with this. My husband and I were were travelling to my in-laws in Northern Ontario. We sadly ended drive by a bear who had just been hit and was laying in the middle of the road. He could not get up, but was still moving his legs. I had to stop the car a few minutes after that as I could not stop crying.  This was not me sympathizing and just being sad about the event. I was in fact feeling pain and so much sadness, and fear. I knew I had picked up on the bear's energy. That's how I started to really notice something important was happening that was tied to my life purpose including animals.

I started volunteering at a sanctuary for wild birds and was assigned to the ICU. I could feel when one was close to passing or when one was scared, happy, etc. It was hard at first but then I realized it was how I could connect with them and therefore help them in the way they needed. It was not a curse feeling this much, it was an ability and tool I was given to help in my own way.

From there my love and desire to help animals heal just sky-rocketed! Animal Reiki was my next step. In this training I was shown techniques and insights only to realize I had already been doing these teachings intuitively, so it just confirmed even more that it was part of my purpose to help nature.

Animals started to show themselves to me more and more, especially wild animals and birds. Animals I had never seen ever before in my life. Just this week I had the privilege of watching, 10 feet away from me, 4 little chickadee babies take their first flight one right after the other. It was absolutely magical. Last winter a snowy owl gave me the honour to be in its' presence one on one. I took the time to thank him, meditate with him and send him Reiki that he graciously accepted. I even have a lovely friend who started to call me Snow White haha!

As I write this I feel my heart space just open up so much. I often say I prefer being in the presence of animals. They understand me and connect with me on a level humans often can't. And the most beautiful thing started to happen. As I was more and more open and practiced more Reiki on them I started to hear them. Animal communication is something I now realize I always did but now I am aware of it and use it to help me get to the root of what needs healing.

Imagine how different our world would be if we all respected, to the high level of wisdom that they have, all animals, trees, insects. They taught me that we don't need words to communicate with one another. Humans to humans, humans to animals, etc. We can communicate and create stronger bonds energetically, if only we take the time. They help us connect with a part of ourselves that is screaming to come alive. They teach us about the beauty of life, the rhythms of the earth, the seasons of joy and struggle we go through. They teach us about compassion, resilience, and of course LOVE. They have helped me heal and now it's my time to do the same for them.

So go out there in nature, be still, observe, listen...there are many teachers ready to help you on your path.

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...


Wednesday, February 1, 2017

The power of intention

More than ever, we are being confronted and triggered. Sometimes by the person sitting right next to us on the bus, by a customer, or, of course and most commonly, our own family. But have you noticed a shift lately? A wind of change? We are most definitely being tested by a much bigger energy and tension from the physical world that we, more and more, can't deny. The energy is dense and although some people have noticed it for awhile now. I would say many more in the last few months are now aware.

And more than ever we need to find ourselves. Some will say they need to find their heart space, others will use the term inner-self, while others will call it finding their centre. It's all the same. It is in your centre that you will find your answers. As only in your centre can you be loved, can you love, and can you change the circumstances you want to see changed. It will not be from the outside that this transformation will occur. It is, and has always been, from the inside out. It starts with you and you will never know the ripple effect, the impact you will make, and the power you have until you tap into the never ending well of abundant love that resides inside of you. And I speak of a gentle and kind inner power that, yes, can change the world.
Words are overrated my friends...intention is how you will get through to others. Intention from your heart and from this peace that we are all made of. That we were born with and that is there even when the world is loud and overbearing.

I did not understand the power of intention, let alone what it truly meant, until last year. I remember the exact moment where I experienced it while consciously being aware of it. I was in a group session/demonstration for equine therapy. We were asked to make our horse meet us at the centre of the arena. I noticed everyone walking towards their horses.  They were trying to push them, pull them, call them. I got quiet, calm, and started breathing. Finding my centre, my heart space. I placed myself in the centre of the arena, closed my eyes. I put out the intention of wanting the horse to come meet me. After about a minute, I opened my eyes. The horse had walked right up to me, only a foot away from me. Facing me and totally connected with me. It was magical and even I could not believe it at first....can it really be this easy? Yes it can! 

I then started to use this in other situations and with different people. At the grocery store, while driving, in my sessions with clients etc. What a beautiful discovery! 
We, humans, use words, so many words....too many words in my opinion. It truly is not how we communicate most effectively. Someone will read your intention long before any words make it to their conscious minds. That's where the intention you have can be so powerful! 

And I know, believe me I know; life is busy, the world is moving fast, and you feel you can't stop because if you do you will be missing out. This needs to be done, that needs attended to etc. I get pulled into the circus like everyone else...but being aware is key. Start by being aware you are being pulled and then take yourself back into your centre with this peace that never left you. It is there inside you waiting for you to tap into it. It won't be a loud will be a whisper. So breathe. Be still as much as you can. Pull yourself back in a million times a day if you must (that's where I am at right now). It takes practice but the rewards last a lifetime. Once you have found this clarity you can move from this place of love and set your intentions... send out your signal into the world! 

Crack your heart open! Let your mind take a back seat. Let your inner self guide is there waiting for you. It will always be there. It has aways been there. The heart always wins. Let your heart be the fuel behind your intentions.

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...


Sunday, January 8, 2017

Your energy...Your responsibility...

My angels wanted me to share with you on the subject of being responsible for your own energy.  Before the holidays I had a big anxiety episode and it had been 3 weeks since my last one. I was pondering what had triggered it.  The next morning I realized it was a mix of my own anxiety and the energy from others around me. Being an empath is a beautiful gift but in stressful times can be harder to live with. An empath is someone who is highly sensitive and can feel and absorb the energy of the people around them. Even further than that some empaths, like myself, can feel world's energies, the collective consciousness. Here's an example; I can be in a perfectly good mood, all is well and I can go in a shopping centre and notice my feelings change. All of a sudden I can start feeling moody or anxious when 1/2 hour before I was on cloud number nine. The same thing happens with watching the news. I actually stopped watching news as it would affect me too much. I can feel someone's sadness and pain on a physical and emotional level. This is a fantastic tool when working with clients but I have had to learn how to take care of my own energy, to clear myself and shield my energy field constantly from the harsh and negative energies that do not serve me.

Maybe you resonate with just being highly sensitive, or being an empath. And maybe you don't resonate with it at all.  The reason I am sharing this is because it is so important to be aware and take care of our own energy no matter at what level we feel it. Because it's also not only about how much you feel but how you share your own energy with others. Are you aware of what you do with it, how you show up in the world, and how it affect others and yourself?

Interestingly I believe self care is key! For all the ones out there who just love to give but take no time for themselves I say please do. Please do take time for yourself because that's how you will achieve your goal of helping others even more. Because eventually, if you take no time for yourself, your level of stress will spike up and negative feelings can start to arise. Feelings like resentment, anger, etc. start to creep in and next thing you know you might take it out on someone, or on your pets, who truly might have nothing to do with all that you are feeling. What you end up doing is just letting it all out. For most people who love to give, you then might start feeling guilty for lashing out...and that is not an healthy energy for you to create and live from. 

So if you believe it is selfish to have regular self-care it truly is not. You're actually doing a favour to yourself and others! It is not a luxury, it is not a selfish's you being responsible with your own energy and showing the self-love you deserve and is necessary.

Finding whatever makes you happy, whatever brings your stress level down, is for you to find out. You get to come up with your own recipe. For me it looks like this; every morning I will bring in my guardian angels and Archangels and connect with them during meditation. I will ask them to help me clean and clear any known or unknown low or fear based energies from my physical, emotional, spiritual, and mental bodies through various methods. I then ask them to shield me for my upcoming day and only let love enter and leave my energy field. Another way I love to provide self-care is connecting with nature.  Going outside is so important to help me find clarity and keep my vibration high. Exercising is also one that helps me, especially gentle forms of exercise like yin yoga, stretching, etc.  Having a sea salt bath is one of my favourites! It helps me to keep my energy clean especially if I was in public during the day. Those are all ways that work for me but everyone is different so make it a fun thing to try to figure out what works for you and raises your vibration!

In very high stress situations, sometimes the best way you can do this is to honour and take care of yourself and remove yourself from conversations, situations, etc. Taking a time-out to go and breathe and check-in with yourself.  Are the situations you find yourself in healthy for you? Do they promote lifting your spirit or is it full of negative which truly helps no one. 

A second point I would like to share is how awareness of your energy is important. Being aware when interacting with the outside world but also when alone. Meditating can be an amazing way to work on building awareness of your own state. Noticing how you feel and what you are doing with all those feelings. Are you owning them and processing them in a healthy way or are you totally ignoring them and acting without noticing how you show up in the world and how it affects you and others?

When I started to be aware of this concept I noticed how it actually changed my interactions for the better with others.  It helped me be much happier and stay positive. That awareness of my own energy made it easier to notice if the energy I was feeling was mine or someone else's. It also made me aware of when I would start being affected by another's energy in my own field. I could then respond to them in a way that was healthier for both of us. 

In closing I wish a beautiful year 2017 to everyone...let it be filled with love, truth, light, discoveries, and growth. I wish you all that your heart and soul desires!

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...


Thursday, December 8, 2016

Out of the spiritual closet

Yep, there you have it! I'm out! What does it mean when I say I am out of the spiritual closet? It means I am comfortable and happy to share and say out loud that I can communicate with angels, spirit, crossed over loved ones, etc. When someone asks me what I do for work I respond that I am an energy healer and I can communicate with their guardian angels. It means that I have, many times, delivered to strangers, from a cashier to a waitress, messages from their angels. It also means I try to connect, make decisions and live as much as possible from my higher-self. I say as much as possible because of course I am still human. I have come to earth in this body of mine to learn, expand and grow. Which means I am not perfect and will make mistakes, which I like to translate as opportunities and experiences. I really believe we are souls having an earthly experience.

Working from that inner place and state has been a huge part, and still is, of my healing. I have gone from wanting to leave this earth to starting my own business in 6 months...It is simply a miracle. It fills me and nourishes me in a way that brings more joy and peace than anything I could find from an external source. The last year working from this place reminded me that all I need is already in me. The gifts and abilities were just mine to uncover and start sharing with the world.
Today I want to share how much I just LOVE working with the angels. I love the feeling when they are around and their energy. Gentle, peaceful, soft.  I seem to lose track of time. Time just not exist...I am simply in the moment. How does my connection work and how do these celestial beings manifest themselves to me? Well I must say I am always impressed at how creative they are. 

Clairvoyance is one of the ways it most frequently takes place for me. What it means is that I can see.  Some things I see with my physical eyes and others in my mind's eye. With my physical eyes I can see sparkles of individual colours which are angels and sometimes even fairies. I can see their messages and guidance which can show up in repetitive numbers on licence plates, receipts etc. and also words and phrases, for example on boards, books, and even television. In my mind's eye I often see blurry, long, or bright shadows that are most often white but sometimes different colours as well. Their messages come in the form of single images of all kinds and sometimes even like a little rolling movie.

My second strongest ability (for now; and I say for now because with time and depending on what is going on in my life it changes) is called Clairsentience, which means I can feel them. I can feel their presence and can also feel the impressions they leave in my body. Sometimes those are answers to questions I have asked for myself or clients. I can also feel other people's energy which is a way for me to connect with others and again get answers for clients but also is very useful to know when to trust and when to move away from certain people.

I also can hear them which is called Clairaudience. For me I can hear with my physical ears and also inside of my head. With my physical ears it is mostly a very clear and specific sound, I have experienced hearing bells, the drawing of a sword, or even soft music playing (especially early in the morning). In my head I will hear words.  It is most often very short and clear.

The last way I get to connect with my loving winged messengers is what we call Claircognizance. It a feeling of knowingness...I just know something and if someone asks me how do I know I actually can't explain it...I just know.

It is now part of my life, every day those lovely celestial beings are with me, guiding me, loving me, taking care of me. I was always a very sensitive child and believed from a very young age in them.  My abilities just kept developing with time based on my desire to connect with them. The cool news is...everyone has angels around them and everyone can communicate with them...all you have to do is ask...

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...


Thursday, November 24, 2016

Do we really know how to be compassionate?

Being compassionate; it is one of the many beautiful human qualities I aspire to be and try to use as a daily practice. To me it means to listen with all my being to someone who is sharing verbally their emotions, their stories. It can also mean to be present to witness their emotions showing up on a physical level, whatever that might look like. They might be feeling pain, sadness, anger. I try to be there with them as they hurt, cry, scream...

I always thought I was pretty good at it, until I realized I sometimes was being compassionate but only partially. Not in a voluntary way of course but I guess I was missing a piece in my practice and it is a big piece. I learned I need to erase myself from the process on a personal level. What do I mean by that? Have you ever gone to someone while you were not feeling well just to share, vent, and let it all out? and while you were there being vulnerable the other person just chips in "oh I understand! I remember when (...) happened to me and I was feeling so (...)" and then they either go on with their story or keep listening to you but later interrupts again or while you are sobbing throws in another example from their life? I think we have probably all done that.  I know I have done it many times thinking I was showing support, thinking it was helping to let them know they were not alone feeling that way. But true compassion means you hold space for that person and take your feelings, your examples, "you" out of it and leave the floor to them. 

I experienced and noticed the difference when I started working with some wonderful people through my healing journey. For example my amazing psychotherapist (see contact info below).  I remember a session, during the early stages of my healing, in whichI was spilling my guts out, crying, talking, feeling a deep emotional pain. She was calm, just listening, letting me get it all out, no interruptions, no advice. Once I was done I realized the silence...I realized that what she had given me was exactly what I needed. She was fully there with me and for me, mind, body and soul. Holding loving space with no judgment of her own. I find these are the most healing moments for me. All of a sudden, in the aftermath of allowing myself to feel, my body starts to process by using that energy, that starts healing itself. The body knows what to do. It just needs the right conditions, the right energy and space. 

This was the key piece missing from my being able to fully practice compassion for others. I have noticed the difference when practicing this skill with anyone pouring their soul out to me. They actually are not used to it! And what I mean by that is they are not used to someone just being there, quiet and listening. I had a few people stop in the middle of their outburst and ask me "is everything ok?" They were waiting for me to interrupt, to give them advice or just chime in at some point. And I simply respond "I am just listening, I am here for you" and then they go back to expressing themselves knowing it is safe and I am here...all of me...just for them.

I encourage you to try this.  See if you notice a difference in them or in yourself. See if you can catch yourself in that moment when all of a sudden you get in your head and either judge, think of some piece of advice, or start looking for an example from your own life and want to chime in.  I would love to hear about your experience in bringing all aspects of compassion into your life.

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...


* I take this opportunity to share with you the info of my wonderful psychotherapist. Her name is Susan Prosser and you can find her at 
The Adlerian Counselling and Consulting Group in Ottawa

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Opportunities are everywhere

I was going to make the blog about compassion this week...and then I did not write it. I was guided to wait. I did not question and went along with the guidance. I woke this morning and understood why "my plan" was not "the plan". It often is that way in life.

Don't worry; this is not about politics but it is definitely what instigated the suggestions and invitations I want to share with you. Many today are afraid, sad, angry and disappointed in light of the results of the American election. You have a right to feel the way you do. Everyone is entitled to their feelings and I invite you to feel them to the with that anger, let the tears flow down your cheeks, feel it all as this is information your body is giving you, valuable information that should not be denied but felt and processed...and then when you are ready... stand up, get up.

As I mentioned in my first blog "the hardest year of my life is in disguise the best catapult and catalyst for me to step and align with my life purpose and strip away layer by layer the untruths". So my invitation to you is, when you feel ready, to be curious and entertain the idea that what has happened is an opportunity. There is HUGE potential for everyone. Opportunities of growth and healing on a personal level as well as for the entire world. This can be the catalyst the world needed for the changes that we want. This can be the catalyst to shed layers and layers of untruths that you will find underneath fear. This could be an opportunity for unity with love as it's leader. I know it can be hard right now for many to even think at it from that point of view and it might mean you have to be patient, kind, and compassionate with yourself. In time it might be easier to consider all of this from that perspective.

Many of you, I am sure, can recall a time or an event in your life or the life of someone else. A time that was just so difficult, so hard, unbearable even. But eventually you noticed how much positive came out of it...the growth and teachings were invaluable. It is not what you might have wanted but looking back you are now thankful for how it unfolded and what it brought you.

Once you are back on your feet...put your hand on your heart... and let it guide you, let it be your compass moment to moment. You don't need to figure it all out now. Just breathe, stay centred, and most of all, don't get distracted. 

Believe me there will be plenty of distractions and they will show up in your life in all ways. Stay the course and stay focussed. Only if you allow it will you be powerless.  Nobody; no woman or man can take your inner peace, power, or inner truth. Stay in your truth, it might not be easy and you might need to remake that choice more than once to come back to that truth of yours. And you know what? that's ok...just gently bring yourself back to it without judgement.

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

I am acceleration in slow motion

There are so many lessons I have learned and continue to discover from my ongoing healing process of this past year. There is one in particular I keep being reminded of especially recently as I improve from week to week; the power of going through life slowly. See, I was raised and conditioned by family and society that working, moving, doing things faster is great because faster meant I could produce more and if I could produce more I would BE more...

When I was going through my darkest period I wanted it to be over with. I knew there were lessons to be learned, that I would grow from it and it was all meant to be this way...but let's be real, truly...all I wanted was for the suffering to be over, the lessons to be learned and processed RIGHT NOW! I needed and wanted to heal FASTER because, well, faster was better right? That is what I had learned.

I spent months and months like this (and still feel the push on harder days). Life had forced me to slow down...I had no more physical strength and as a fitness instructor I kept seeing my strength leave my body, I kept losing weight that I did not want to lose. Psychologically and emotionally I could not function anymore. Everything was a trigger for OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). There are many ways OCD can manifest and mine was manifesting in the form of intrusive thoughts. I could not watch TV anymore, I could not read anymore, I was unable to be in public. During car rides I was only watching my feet because if I looked out the windows I would get triggered. Spiritually I was unable to connect with my dear intuition and hear the loving guidance of my soul. Everything was stripped away from me...leaving me with what seemed like nothing. I was only able to live minute to minute, moment to moment. I was unable to plan how I would be or what I would do in the next half hour; let alone trying to plan the next day, next week, next month. 

As I mentioned I was left with what seemed like nothing...but truly I was given a gift. The gift of experiencing what living in the moment felt like...truly there was no other way for me to be. When I started to work from that place and accept it (believe me that did not go over well all the time) I started to see improvements...small but HUGE all at once. For example; the fact that I could start staying home all by myself for an hour without my husband being at home with me was a reason to celebrate! For months he moved his office to our home so he could be with me (yes he is an incredible husband!). I even remember the first time I truly laughed after months and months of not doing actually startled me.

The more I slowed down the faster I was healing. During a session with my CODE Model Coach™ , Kae Roberts, (credit to Louise Lebrun and WEL-Systems Institute as the creators of CODE Model Coaching™) I was given the suggestion of an affirmation and if it spoke to me and felt right to use it in my everyday life as a reminder. She said "write this down; I AM ACCELERATION IN SLOW MOTION". I had to take a moment to realize how much this was resonating with me and how profound the discovery of this affirmation felt in my being. This gave me an indication of where I was in my journey and the progress I had made.

The more I slowed down the more I noticed the important things in life. All of my psychic abilities started to kick back in, I could hear, see, feel and know my intuitions' guidance, my angels' guidance (now I've got you wondering right? what??? she can hear, see, feel and know what??? yeah that will be for another blog lol). I was noticing the important markers that would help me make the best choices for my life. I had pin-pointed a false belief that had been well conditioned and anchored in my body at a cellular level which brings me back to the beginning...working, moving, being faster no longer meant I would be more...there was never a need for me to be more...all I need is to BE. I can't rush my healing and I can't rush life. 

May your healing move you with ease and grace wherever you are in your journey...